LITB

Thanks... I haven't had the opportunity to talk with H.

Funny but you hit something dead on. I have always had to temper

what I said to H if I wanted to voice my opinions or frustration

about anything. So that I wouldn't bring on arguments. Often I

would agree with him, even though I really didn't just to keep

peace. I know I should have never started our relationship

like that.

Next week he is taking her to the beach for "Bike Week".

Something we have done as a couple for the past several years.

I am sick to my stomach about it. I told him that I was hoping

we could have worked things out by now so that we could go

together. That I am disappointed about not going. His response

was he didn't think I had a very good time last year. I told him

I enjoyed getting away with him and spending time with him...

No response to that.

I guess LITB that I have been so glad we have had a couple of

really good times together- and I want to still see him.

But- as you said before then I am enabling the affair. I am

also "accepting" his sin and his relationship. I know I

shouldn't do that. I guess I'm fearful of H choosing her

over me. Oh how I hate all of this!!!!