I am so sorry that you are having these feelings. I think I was very much like that in 2012 and 2013. Functioning from an outsiders point of view but in reality - when I was alone- just collapsing into loneliness and a dull routine. Especially after my kids slept. It was part of my grieving I suppose- part of my journey to get through. My friends never really even knew what was going on.
I did a lot of journaling, thinking , drinking and crying. It wasn't very healthy. However i was able to really reflect on myself and what I want and where I want to be. It was for sure the hardest time of my life and I knew I had to face it alone. I think getting professional counselling is a great idea. And talking to us here because you are definitely not alone. Ever. You really and truly have us all. Don't forget that. Xxx
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
