Yep, my lovely thread where I postulate over minutiae in the hopes that my situation will change.

Amazon says my book was delivered today but it's not here. I'm bummed. I'm hoping the tracking info is incorrect.

H just called to talk to D7 and find out about her spelling/vocab test and she was so excited to tell him that she earned her red stripe in karate today. I love listening to her explain to him on the phone what she had to do to earn her stripes and I can hear him yelling with excitement and pride through the phone. It makes my heart swell.

He asked to talk to me which was surprising given that he's been super short via text the past two days ("dropped her bag off at the door" or whatever). He saw that we were planning on hitting the beach on Sunday (we share an ical for D7's appointments, etc) and he asked if it would be ok for him to come, that he'd love to see "her" meaning D7 (he's very careful about clarifying lest I think he actually wants to see me). At first I almost said, "no, I think we'll do this one solo" but that would be punitive because I DO want him to come. I told him we'd love to have him and would he rather meet us there or come to the house and we'll go together. He said, "I'd like to come, to come and I'll pick you up at the house if that's ok." So, there's that. It doesn't seem these little family visits do much though. I love that he wants to see D7 but I don't think there's much more to it at all.

Oh well. I'm trying to get to a point where it doesn't matter.


M: 37 H: 36
M: 13 T: 18
D: 7
Bomb: 6/30/14
Separation: 8/11/14

Be strong enough to let go and wise enough to wait for what you deserve.