Dealing with ongoing affair -which may now be over

[PeterV2]

W spent the day at home here cooking. Then we lay on our bed together and watched TV - no cuddling. Then D27 came over and joined us, while we had a picnic on our bed. It was nice. Some quality time. Then she went back to the RH & invited me to follow.

We had a long talk over a glass of wine. She has reread my apology letter. She's looking at me a little differently, but still says she misses her old life (before she met me) and she described her activities from that time. She says she wants that back.

She said I didn't make spending time with her a priority. I agreed and said that I've opened up my schedule and I like my slower pace, and that I never want to go back to the frantic me that I was. She sees that.

I started talking about LL but 3 sentences into my explanation she said that's all garbage - you can't pigeonhole needs. She says I've read a few books and now I think I'm an expert. I argued that I'm just trying to learn and figure out how to make things better. I said we need to figure out a way to do that. She quietly agreed.

Yeah, this is like getting a skittish deer to eat from your hand. I just have to stay still and offer food for the heart. If I'm patient enough and don't jump out then maybe it'll happen.

It's still so difficult.