Besides wandering the downtown taking photos...and getting assaulted by a drunken native person, I also had an appt with my psychologist. I wanted to go over my newly found break with sanity...my attempts to date. IC said that my mistake is that I believe that people are basically good and honourable like I am...many just aren't. She also said that I have the idea the these people are in touch with their feelings and when they do crappy things to me I believe they're doing it purposely. She said many people act but have no real understanding of their feelings or why they do what they do. Anyway, she said when things like my recent experience happen to her she tries to be grateful for it 'cuz it means she got spared something worse if it had of continued. Anyway, she thinks BA Lady (sorry BA I'll never use your initials with a lady again...promise!) was wanting to hurt me cuz I basically ditched her for being an insensitive boob. Who knows. She also said that I need to be careful of that part of me that starts blaming myself or feeling it happened 'cuz I wasn't good enough...and all the other bs I tell myself. We also discussed the church lady who I said I was gonna lay off of...I don't need the crap that comes from it all going bad in a little church. She agreed it would be best to be very cautious but remain friendly with the lady and see what happens. Anyway, she also told me to date Asians if I want to..."you know what you like, so go ahead and do it" I dunno. So, that was that. I think I'm cured and that slap in the head from the homeless guy, it's exactly what I needed lol!
