barely holding on - 3

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Dawgy - I didn't take it as a suggestion to go further. I too feel like I can a confidence/self esteem boost (I've not been good with that anyway).

I wasn't judging that plan, only saying that I don't feel that it is what I am after right now. And (not saying that you are), but I have a feeling that I would go out like a wounded bird looking for someone to pick me up and help me. I just want to avoid that now until I can go out as me and not me with a sob story.

I'm also not suggesting that I wouldn't be friendly to whoever I was talking to - I feel that, even with my introverted tendencies, I am usually friendly - just not outgoing.

I think you need to do what's best for you, but keep your goals in mind. Friendly is always good.