Book arrived and I finished reading it during the week Gave me some great insight.
Had a terrible day today with H as we text for most of the day. It wasnt nice. He said he didnt love me and how could he live with someone he didnt love. This is the first time he has said this. He also told me that he hasn't loved me for ages which was news to me. I dont really believe him but it still hurts like crazy.
After I dropped off our son in the evening, he text me to say that he was sorry about today, his feelings hadn't changed but he was sorry.
He has mentioned a few times now that if we do get back together then it would be a platonic relationship. This hurts me too and confuses me even more.
I felt like throwing in the towel today but I know that I would regret it so I tried to salvage things as best I could.
Feeling discouraged though and sad
Thankfully I have a busy weekend ahead to help take my mind off things.
Gave me some great insight. 
