Thanks GGG and Shining- I think I was just feeling a little lonely.

GGG your list cracked me up- I think I might make one of my own to see all the contradictory things that pi$$ H off depending on the day!

Shining I agree about us trying reconnection, it seemed like he was the one doing that b/c he was really sharing with me and talking about wanting to come home but not quite being ready and then-BAM!- something related to his unresolved issues occurs and he ran back to the comfort of the tunnel.

I'm emotionally exhausted- which means I need to take time for me and let his gooey center bake! ( my irritation with him right now wants to refer to it as a wu$$y center but when I step back I know he's in pain so I'll let it go).

Thanks again for posting- I needed a little love smile

Me 41 H 40
M 20 T 23
S 19,16, 8 D 13
BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work
BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D
Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015
Life is about daring greatly, about being in the arena- Brene Brown