So I feel like I've been posting to myself a lot lately..... Anyone out there? I could definitely use some input.

Since H and I had our convo yesterday when he was upset with me- I have had some (repeat) realizations..... Seems like every few months I get the aha- this is done, time to back off.
So I recognized from our conversation that just because he seems like the old H more often and has quite a bit of insight- HE'S STILL COOKING! ( caps meant to remind me).
He may be able to see some of his issues, he may start to have more feelings for me and question if he really wants to leave- but he still isn't able to handle his unresolved issues when they are triggered and he sure as h3!! can't have any compassion for me right now- nor should I expect it. ( duh! I knew that but I got sucked in again.....)

So how I feel for today is that I need to pull back and not spend so much family time with him- not b/c I'm trying to get a reaction from him or show him what he's missing, but because I need a break. I'm getting too emotional again, the evolving reconnection made me drop my guard and look for mor

Me 41 H 40
M 20 T 23
S 19,16, 8 D 13
BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work
BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D
Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015
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