I did bounce around pleasantly for 2 months and H thought life was great. Then he asked me why I was still seeing a therapist. Then he got mad.
It was mad at himself. It does sound like he's been processing a lot in his brain. He's still trying to make it work, but realizing that it doesn't.
The thing that I'm really, really struggling with right now is something that he said to me and then reiterated about 10 days later.
"I always said that I would die for you, MLP. I would literally throw myself in front of a bullet to save your life. But I won't give up a friend. And that's killing you.
I won't kill myself to save you."
It's like O. Henry's Gift of the Magi.
I'm waiting for this to end, giving him the gift of time...but at what cost? He's slowly realizing that he's picked her--something I realized months ago.
And this just makes me realize that I need to detach more.
Do I do this with or without conversation? I don't know.
