Wonka, I think you are doing the right thing by sitting on the sofa and thinking about things. Sometimes when we don't have the answers or know what to do, it is best to just sit quietly and allow the answers to come when they are ready.
I am very sorry about how things have been w/the former Mrs. Wonka. I do hope that someday she will come to realize what a real jewel you are and what she's lost.
Take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
