Igit newbie needs help part 3

[pilot]

yea, no mind reading. It seriously could be anything igit. I KNOW you WANT it to be her having some deep hidden second thoughts going on. But for your own sanity, stop thinking about it. Even if she was having those thoughts, you know as well as anyone the roller coaster. Those thoughts could be history by tomorrow and you back to being the antichrist. I kind of get the sense you are grasping for any sign she might want to reconsider. And I do not mean that negatively, just making a limited observation. I truly feel for you because the wheels are in motion with your D. You are just going to have to keep riding it out. Forget about putting any significance on replying to the summons next Thursday. Next Thursday is just another week day. You will have many deadlines, filings, hearings, meetings and what not after your reply, so why even worry about Thursday. The reality is you are no nearer or farther from a D right now than you were on BD. So try to keep that PMA the best you can, and forget about the summons being important. Hell, when you sign it, put a smiley face next to your name