The Waiting One (and tired of it)

[Atsbaby]

I'm not in a very pleasant mood tonight. Still fired up about the past few days. I'm really struggling with forgiving myself for stupid behaviors, and I know I shouldn't blame myself, but this is one of those things I need to work on.

Clark emailed asking me if I had anything planned for dinner. I waited a long time to answer and told him no (he NEVER cooks dinner for the kids, I just assumed the same tonight). So he asked if I wanted him to pick me up anything. Sure why not.

By the time I got home, I was still steaming at him, so I went for a run. Helped a bit. Tucked the kids in to bed and talked to a friend. Clark asked if we were still splitting the weekend, me Saturday, him Sunday. Sure why not, take your f***ing gf to MY football game. That's ok, be here at 9am to get the kids. I got plans and you need to be with the kids!!!

I just cannot figure out how to let this go. I'm really trying but he burned me good this time. I don't even want him around the kids. I want to tell them how much of an @$$hat he is, but we all know I'm better than that.

Positive note, I'm prettier than OW. And I may have a "date" for Friday night

Goal: still not being a doormat, gullible or giving in easy