He was there for me. We had very wonderful outings. He was a gift and still is.
This is very difficult, for I have fallen. He and I have so much in common it's scary. I have enjoyed having him part of my life. It hurts very much right now... so many things are whirling in my mind. He's my Bear and I feel so at ease when I'm with him. He calms me, allows me to just be.
Yes, I'll be okay. But I don't like what I'm hoping for, even though they are divorced. She chose to walk away, and at a time when the Corps retired him. She chose to keep silent and let him write letters without responding. Cruel.
I feel hurt and want to be with him. I want him to resolve his feelings on his own. It is an awkward time for her to do this; and I pray things will allow us to move forward together. I'm not sure how long I'll choose to be in limbo. Something tells me that I should at least give him one more month.
The meet up tonight was okay. Nice guy, BUT... he left his wife. I can't go there. No abuse, no infidelities. Perhaps that is why. Walking away from something that could be worked on, just seems wrong.
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
