Ss, ha! Orange is my favorite color. Explains a lot about me, doesn't it?
I want to figure out how to be more strategic in my thinking here. I want to give the marriage the chance it deserves and make appropriate use of the time remaining to us. I want to have a kind of armor of logic I can use to contain my frustrations as they arise, and also to help me decide how and when to interact with my H.
I guess step one is to detach more. I think him saying he wanted to spend time with me shook me up the same way hearing about the end of OW did.
Saying treat him like a brother isn't helpful because I expect to have fun with my brothers. I guess I could treat him like my batty, needy neighbor. (That would so horrify him if he knew I was comparing him to her).
I think also I need to acknowledge that he's not very attractive right now. It's kind of arrogant for him to think I'm pining over him, and arrogant of him to fail to consider that the way my life is going could impact my feelings & opinion of him. If I just see him that way until he proves otherwise I won't be so disappointed.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
