barely holding on - 3

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Thanks Peter - I agree with this all - I've calmed down again (bad night) quiet day. No poking the bear to see what happens

I AM committed and need to show her that. I've been patient and need to keep that up. I had my ring off for a total of 2 hours today, but carried it in my pocket. It's on again.

Trust is going to be hard until she actually gives me something to trust. Makes that actual statement that it is over with OM. Until then I can't ask, I can't accuse, just stew (I mean detach).

I do a good job most of the time not speaking of A or OM. It has come up as a work and future career options - mainly by her. I try not to add or dwell on it.

BTW - I really like the It's not the Nail video. You sent me a link to it before. I do find it very hard not to comfort her when she's upset though (maybe that's rescuing). She was sobbing and came in for a hug and I held her. It's hard for me to turn that off sometimes.