I was doing so good

[u-turn]

Hey Dawgy,
I started light - 6'1 150 went down to 130 like a skeleton. Friends were starting to worry and I made no fuss about it. Couldn't eat and was exercising to burn out some thoughts
I'm back up to 145 - I'm not the most healthy eater but ensure, and as much comfort food as I could stomach. ice cream, hamburgers (this is not advice just what is working for me). I find that eating with my kids helps too - they are watching - always watching.

Sleep has been rough since March - falling asleep slow, waking up 3 hours later and that's it. The nightmares are what got me. I'd have vicious violent ones, humiliating ones, dreams where everyone was turning against me and encouraging her. and on and on. This ruined each day too. Talking in my sleep is/was getting at W too. It was like pursuing and begging at night too - what a wreck I was

Time and detaching has helped with this.

Along with a glass or two of wine every now and then - (again maybe not good advice but it works for me).

This forum and all of the fantastic people that I can relate to help too. I no longer feel an oddity and alone in this. It is calming to not be calm here.