I was doing so good

[GoatGal]

Dawgy,

I was also on that great diet where you can eat anything (that'll stay down) and still lose weight.

I lost 30 pounds in almost three months, and I wasn't heavy to begin with.

Every time I start to gain it back, I'm like you, Dawgy... I think I'm detached, I think I've got a handle on things, and then I get spinning and anxious and it all comes back off and then some.

I gained seven pounds over the last two months, only to lose 9 again.

I agree with everyone above ^^^^.

You have GOT to sleep, whether it's Melatonin, or for me either Valium or Trazedone. OR just Tylenol PM... it's a priority for you.
You can't function and the anxiety just increases. It will make you "mental" and totally unable to DB.

As for the food, comfort food is great at this point. It's not about eating "healthy" as much as getting some calories and comfort in there.

Mac and cheese, ice cream, steak and potatoes, waffles at midnight, chicken noodle soup; whatever it is that you like and will stay down will work .
You can worry about being healthy later.

I also drank a LOT of Ensure. Sometimes it was the only thing that didn't make me throw up.

The good news is I haven't thrown up in many weeks. That shows me it's getting better.

It's a rough time, I know. And taking advice is also hard.
Whatever you can do to get your mind off things for awhile is good.
Don't feel guilty for pampering yourself and doing things that make you feel good.

If you have others depending on you, you can't afford to run yourself down any more than has happened already, OK?

One last thing. For me, something that helped get my mind off my own nightmare was reaching out and helping others. That still works wonders.

Keep us posted!


---GGG
PS: Calms Forte' is a natural, homeopathic remedy for sleep, and it DOES work. You can get it in lots of stores that have a "Natural Foods" section.