It's been a bit since I've written. In that time we've had a vacation and too much time together. I was having glimmers of hope but it's more apparent that I really don't want to be married to him. But I really fear for my children's well being if we divorce, and dealing with their absence during shared custody freaks me out. I just don't trust him with my vulnerabilities. How do I do this and make everyone ok?

Ugh. Feeling very negative right now...

Haven't made much progress in reading DR. Should probably get back to that. Is there a chapter on stopping the mind from circling? ;-)