Well ... just as you guys predicted ... she has pulled back. And as the strategy states ... as hard as it is .. I will not pursue. I will again go dark and detach. It is frustrating, in a way I feel she used me this weekend to get her emotional needs met, she avoided being alone, she got what she wanted and cast me aside once again and it is frustrating but I know this is a long road and I will remain calm and go back to what I was doing. We do have plans for Sunday to go up and see her brother, its another opportunity for me to be there for her. I just hope at some point she will realize every time she has needed someone, I have been the rock ... not the doormat. I caught myself being angry as I left this morning ... yesterday she was pretty quiet ... not uncommon as her job seems to be pretty stressful for her, she did text a little last night but during the week she seems to really pull back, I think she is comfortable in her routine, work/gym/home/cook/eat/shower/bed .... but on the weekends the loneliness gets to her.
So one of those down days ... hopefully I can stick my head into my work and not think about it much ( Seems thats one of the challenges with this is not allowing your mind to race off with your emotions) ..... I realize I allowed some expectations to creep in my head and hold hands with hope ... tsk tsk .. my mistake there.
