Part of me still wants to reconcile, but another part of me sees a lot more clearly how much work that will be. There are a lot of changes that will need to be made on both of our parts, and I imagine there will be quite a lot of really painful work in there. I'm up for it, if it becomes an option at some point, and I definitely think that it could be worth it. But it would take two very open, very committed, very flexible, and very responsible people, and I don't think we're anywhere close to that point yet. Doesn't mean we won't get there, but I also don't really want to sit around in stasis on the off chance that we can get there, particularly when I've started to realise how much I've been missing out on.
Meghan I love this paragraph, and it sounds like you are on a good path right now.
I'm up for the work of R, too, but realize that things weren't as peachy as I pretended they were and I don't want the "old" anything back. And I don't think H is up for the work. So.....
