You are correct, I do not want her coming back to me out of desperation. At this point I really want her to be out of here; I need her to be gone if I am ever going to feel like wanting to salvage this relationship. Right now when I see her I feel anger at what she has done to me and what she is doing to our son. I know now that I have other options and that if the marriage was ended I would not be alone for long.
As to how she is going to live on her own; I know she already has severe money problems and has been spending well beyond her means. She had been counting on student financial aid to finance her divorce and new apartment but that is gone since she dropped her classes, and she has fallen behind in payments on her credit cards which are all in default.
I wish I could be the bigger person and feel some sympathy for her plight, but I am still upset enough about what she has done to me that I am glad to see her in such difficulties, which are of her own making. If she comes back I want it to be due to real remorse and a desire to have a better marriage and not out of her financial difficulties.
Me37, W30, S7 Married 10yrs 05/11/04 ILYBINILWY 22/09/13 Disc. OM1 26/09/13 Disc. STD from OM2 03/02/14 Affair Confession 21/06/14
W and I share same apartment (for a few more days). W isn't pushing for D.
