"While upstairs, I texted him and asked a question I've asked many times before, "if you had it to do all over again, would you marry me?" I was shocked that I didn't get the immediate "of course I would" that I always had before."
Before that you painted a pretty happy picture of your M.. but I don't know that people who feel that all is well and confident about their M would be asking this many times. What do you think leads you to ask about this a lot? Was that only after the miscarriage and he became grumpy? Were other things happening that shook your confidence? Were you expecting more out of the responses? You mention being a questioner...maybe that's something to 180 if you're not already. In my M I also questioned a lot and wanted a lot of reassurances, and it didn't give me the answers I was seeking... instead it lead H to feel mistrusted, that I was jealous, and that I was always prying/nosey.
Me:30 H:29, no kids T:12, M:4 (when D was final) 12/13: "Don't think I want to be M anymore" 6/14: Separated (I move) 1/15: H filed for D 5/15: D final
