Thank you, Mr. Bacon. I teared up when you said that he is giving me a gift. In a lot of ways I've already realized that. I've started instilling changes in my life that I've known I needed to for a long time but haven't been able to find the motivation or self discipline to do it. This is my motivation and the self discipline has kicked in out of my fight or flight response. I've lost about 10 lbs since the break started (which my midwife is ok with since I was overweight at the beginning of my pregnancy) and I feel much more confident in my appearance. I've been spending more time with friends, friends whom I thought I'd lost as a result of being absorbed by motherhood. I've face my biggest fears and conquered them: being a single mom & sleeping "alone." Both of which have resulted in a boost in confidence. It's just so hard living on eggshells being afraid of saying or doing something that will push him even further away, since I've been so successful so far of making him run. I'm 99% sure that if I had known what I know now, when he asked for the break, that he'd be back home already. The hardest part of this is what it's doing to our children and the fact that he seems to not care. He's never been a selfish man...but suddenly he's behaving incredibly selfishly and recklessly. I'm amazed. I know he's young, but I really think this sounds like a MLC. Do you have any opinion on that?
Also, what does being on moderation mean? Small posts are difficult to accomplish. Haha.
Me: 30 Him: 30 Daughter: 5 Son: 3 Daughter: 1 Started dating: 2008 Married: 2010 He moved out: late 7/14
