On the brink, need a miracle

[Onguard]

Thanks Starsky and Tarheel. Today has been tough. My w says that it has been a while since she felt in love with me. Longer than a year. She wishes things were different and that she does not want to hurt me. According to her, her IC said "Your husband took your feelings from you, little by little, with years of neglect." She blames me for her affair and for the fact that she got hurt when it ended. She says that she does not miss us like I do. She thinks the only chance we have is to separate. We tried to go on a few dates over the past week and things were awkward much of the time. No touching and lots of dead air silence.

I am trying to follow the rules. "Believe none of what she says and 50% of what she does." I know waw's will re-write marriage history but she is making it seem totally genuine. I knew that we were in a rut towards the end but I had no clue she was this unhappy. My sitch feels totally hopeless right now and I needed to vent. I still love her but she is long gone. At least for now.