So Monday morning I jumped on the bike, went to the store and cooked myself a nice breakfast. During this time I was looking around on FB ... seens she unblocked me which was a suprise (I could still view her page before ... just had to go about it differently) ..... however I also seen OM "liked" a post from her last night which bugged me .... I almost wanted to press my boundary but realized I comprimised and decided to let it go. I am going to give it 3 weeks ... my birthday .. she has till then and then I revisit our conversation, and I am prepared to make the stand.
I arrived at her place on time and they were surprisingly ready to go (She is always running late). Things were good, I did feel a bit of a disconnect but recalled to stay positive. She was playing on her phone the entire time, messing with some new smiley face App ... I just remained calm, and decided the day would be for S and not 'us'. We started out walking .. W always gets heat exhaustion so I made it a point to carry the backpack and her expensive camera ... I lugged all the stuff all day, even when she tried to carry .. I would politely snatch it back. I purposely had us take several breaks in the shade to help her. We tracked the miles we walked as kind of a get back in shape game. So during about the 3-4th break she realized I changed in the area of patience ... she mentioned it in a small way and as we were sitting I apologized for always rushing during times at the zoos ... and museums (Last museum trip I did well a few months ago) ... I told her I was sorry for always rushing but with the 2 jobs I felt pressured to cram it all in ... and I told her how nice and relaxing the day was being able to enjoy it without thinking about work or what time we were going to get home. This visibly caught her off guard a bit and I just turned to my S and answered a question he had asked me a few minutes prior. Up to this point things were just "professional" between us ... we went to the Polar Bear and sat ... they wanted to get up and leave as we couldn't see much .. I again told them we have all day ... just wait ... right on cue the Bear appeared and gave us quite a show. We had lunch ... and as I got up to toss our stuff in the trash ... I came back and gave her a cold water .. she thanked me and stood up and gave me a big hug. Took almost all day .. but finally I felt a small connection. We went home, I dropped them off and went back to my place. I didnt want to be there alone .. so I jumped on the bike and hit the beach to watch the sunset. S called to say goodnight and asked what I was doing ... I told him and she was in the background so I know she heard.
Later that night she TM me and thanked me for a fun day, I returned by thanking her for a great weekend ... and I really enjoyed myself. We met this mornign at S school ... first day .. and the first time I have been able to be there on his first day, we took pictures and me the new teacher (180 for me in all areas ... being more involved in the morning with his school) .... we talked to other parents .. then I walked her to the car (I have been opening her door for the past few months .. 180) So I open her door .. and again .. big hug. then some fun TM about S as she went to work.
I feel I have made alot of progress ... all positives with her after this weekend. We are scheduled to go up north and see her brother Sunday. I need to stay calm, take it slow .. but I do also know I will remain somewhat detached untill I know for sure OM is out of the picture, she TM at 1 in the am. saying she wokeup ... little things like that make me believe deep down she wants me, otherwise .. why do that>? then agian .. this WAW MLC thing .. nothing makes sense .. but knowing that has helped me deal with this sitch more than I can articulate.
So ... for now I am just going to go through the motions with her, treating her as if we are just starting to date (not pursuing, remain detached/GAL), seems that was a big factor in the turn around, and I have to admit I loved the feeling we shared Saturday night. I will play this out for a few weeks and then see where we end up, before messing with the squirrel and pressing the issue on OM who at this point seems on its way out naturally anyways .. me pressing may appear controlling something she is sensitive about ... but in the same breath I can not have dude lurking in the shadows either....even typing that ... I need to worry about me, and about how her and I reconnect.
