I made a fuss about his ring a couple of weeks ago and he put it back on. At least when he's around me he wears it. Who knows what he does other times.
To be consistent I should wear mine. But I don't care any more if he wears his and mine is keeping me tied to a reality that is no longer real.
I'm not trying to distance him. I'm trying to detach from all the heartache and impatience I've been feeling. And I'm truly tired. There is no more I can do than what I'm doing. Maybe if I put the ring aside I'll be able to smile more freely. That's really all I want, is to be able to smile at him.
I may put it back on tomorrow but I don't want to wear it today. I'm so tired.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
