WAWs or Wayward M: How to SHOW change is afoot?

[DBinSF]

Thanks, Ss06. Funny, I am a great guy. I've just put an INORDINATE amount of energy into getting affirmation from women for 90% of my life -- as in since kindergarten! It's insane to look at my insanity!

At this point, I'm at 3.5 months without as much as a holding hands with a woman. It's the longest I've gone without affection since a "dry spell" in college. It's liberating and maddening. And I'm still wasting hours a day obsessing.

I get excited thinking about all I could do and accomplish if I wasn't wasting time trying to fix my relationship. My "monastic" life is both inspiring and scary. I'm ready to be done, to be a Dad, to have a house and a bustling career. But I realize these same patterns have been cropping up my entire life.

There's no moving forward until I've moved through these issues. And as you said, patience is the hardest part. I want to be better NOW.