I was doing so good

[Ss06]

i cant prepare for it because it rips my heart out thinking about it.

^^^^ You CAN prepare for it. It's hard. It feels impossible. It feels like you can't breathe and that you might actually die. I know. But you CAN prepare for it because you don't die. You will breathe. It is not impossible. I believe in you.

Another problem i have is im worried about how it will hurt everyone else. Kike her parents , my parents . her brothers all of our friends . Her leaving is going to be far reaching but most of all my boys will be devastated . Why did she wait until school started and the boys made the football team . Why didnt she leave a month ago when we could have had 3 or 4 weeks to adjust . This will just ruin school and everything for them

It will be far-reaching but you cannot control or contain that impact on others. It just is. It's her choice. Your pain is real and I see it. I felt just like you before my H left. I tried everything. I appealed to his logical side, his heart, his soul, his practical side... he was resolute and that was that.

You will survive this. It hurts, there is no doubt. You will survive this.