The Waiting One (and tired of it)

[Atsbaby]

It's not ok him showing up whenever, but I'm not sure how to set that boundary. I did just get him to finally stop coming to the house without me being there, or at least give me a heads up that he was coming.

I'm more mad at myself than anything. I knew better, but so did he. He knew I'd be sleeping! My brain wasn't totally functioning at awareness, but I also did have the thought of pushing him away. After 3 weeks of no attention and then he comes over wanting attention....I'm just so mad, frustrated, disappointed, sad. You know all those feelings.

I'm still going to not pursue. I'm not going to respond to him immediately. He pursued me. I really need to re-read dr and finish a couple other books that I have.

I can continue to detach. I have to for me. Now I need to figure out how to forgive myself.