The crazy thing is how much like a physical addiction this is. I am without my fix, so in doing anything I can to "get a hit." I know it intellectually, but I can't make the leap yet emotionally.
This is hugely insightful, DB! I think one of the hardest things we all struggle with on this forum is patience. There's all this time we don't have control over and we're supposed to do what with it? Make ourselves better? One of the things we have to remind ourselves, DB, is to have patience with ourselves. Some of this stuff we have to push through and seek out but some of the other changes should happen organically. You realizing that you're having a hard time emotionally detaching from your "fix" is a GREAT thing to realize!
Really. Really great!
Let that permeate for a bit because it's profound!
On a separate note, I wonder what kind of awesome guy you are when you're not in hot pursuit of a woman. You're in the process of finding THAT guy and I bet he's super fascinating for YOU to get to know.
