I understand totally, one of my fears is slipping back into any of the negative behavior that lead to this. I do try to better myself as much as time allows. I went back to work, and I enjoy my job. I am also looking after my own health and have lost a ton of weight and added muscle. The woman I want to see the difference has said little about this, other women have noticed and commented on how good I look. I am also thinking about going back to school to finish my Masters.
I have been doing what I think works and sometimes it seems to be going great, but this weekend has been a rollercoster.
I have also taken up CrossFit, akido, and jujitsu. I enjoy the classes a lot.
So now I have been doing these things but I have also let my W know that she and her opinions matter. I try to get her to finish her sentences instead of going never mind. I also give her space when she says she can't talk about it. She has also been asking if she can help more with the kids which I think is great. She also wanted to use the car today and drive herself which is also good.
I understand how easy it is to fall back into the negative behavior that brought us to this point. I have made he changes and keep working with the kids to keep them in place. A lot of the changes do make my life easier.
I also understand that we have to keep things a little fresh so we don't fall back into these routines. I just try to make my families life better and I think it's working. I also understand this is going to take a long time and I have just started.
