It's just frustrating. I know my dad has this idea that, to some extent, I deserve the situation I'm in. He looks at it very practically and sees all the ways I woulda, coulda, shoulda in the past 20 years. I know that.
It's just hard knowing that he blames me and honestly hasn't clue about the obstacles I've been up against. I've gotten good at asking for what I need from him in the past. Only now, he feels he gave at the office and he's done.
I will figure this out.
He said to me last week, "I think it will be good for you to gain a sense of accomplishment from all of this."...like I'm 15 or something...like I need to learn some life lessons. And, if he says, one more time, "If you can pull this off..." I'm gonna blow.
Where in the frack are HIS life lessons? I didn't cheat and lie...how come he gets the Caddy? I just need to let it out. It's so hard to watch him skip into the house, look his patronizing looks at the messes, make some idiotic remarks and, then, skip back to his life. It's really no wonder that I'm attracted to immature, selfish jerks. My dad's pic is in the dictionary next to the worlds, self-involved, clueless and full-of-himself.
Just need to vent.
Made another list of potential properties. Contacted more agents. Wish it wasn't Labor Day.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
