Sounds like you've not only dropped the rope, you sound ready to set it on fire.

I don't blame you for wanting to keep him away from your son. That sounds very toxic.

No matter what, I think you seem ready to live life to the fullest.

Me: 34 W:33
T: 10 M: 6
S: 6 D: 5
BD: 5/14
Still together(ish)
Not giving up: 7/14
D talk has slowed, a lot.
Gradually working on things together. Still separate bedrooms.
Slow and Steady wins the race.