Dealing with ongoing affair -which may now be over

[PeterV2]

Thanks Ss06 for the words of encouragement.

I want to believe that the A is over but I still get moments when I suspect that she's out seeing him. I think it's just paranoia from the old hurt. I just need to do thought stopping when I get those moments. It would help if she shared her phone with me but I feel that asking her to do so would be pressuring.
But I think that, as Sandi mentioned, she may be keeping her phone private as a statement of independence rather then a way to hide an A. If she was still in the A I think she would be acting a lot differently, like she did back in March.

She says our separation is a good thing because it allows her to find herself. If that's what it's going to take to eventually come back to me then I'll agree. I'm just afraid that it could take years and I'm lonely without her in the house.

Then again, I'm getting so used to her not being here that when she comes back I think it will be so different than I can remember that it will indeed be a new marriage. One that requires the work I've learned is needed to keep a M strong.

Yes, I'll give her lots of space and support. I guess that's the only way that she'll find her way, and hopefully that way leads back to our M.