Just caught up on your situation. Perhaps one of the vets like sandi could chime in. You seem to have an extra hill to climb being it YOUR first marriage and your Ws 3rd. In other words, D has become almost normal to her where it is catastrophic to you. I have a good friend of mine who has literally been married 8 or so times. It is insane. She has married and divorced/annulled within months. People like that baffle me. Now granted you two have been married for quite some time, but given that she has already divorced twice before, she may not be as afraid of it as some first timers.
Anyways, just a thought...because maybe there is something you can/should do that others might.
Keep posting. Even if I am not responding all the time, I will follow you and you can know that at least one person is thinking and wishing the best for you.
Me: 42 W: 32 Married 7 years together 8.5 S1: 7 S2:7 Bomb #1: 09-16-13 Recon #1: 11/13 A discovered 04-03-2014 W filed D 05-19-14 but never served me I filed D 12-02-2014 S 05-31-14 Divorced 5-19-16