This is terrifying - I hope you understand

[Shakspr]

Thanks for the perspective, all. HopeTex is probably right - healthy detachment. Problem is, I have an off switch. I was a geeky little kid who "felt" too much. Once I learned that people could - and would - use that against me, I learned how to turn it off. And that off switch is a shiny button. I don't want to stop caring completely, 'cuz then I go into FU mode and mass casualties occur. Why am I so binary?

Thanks, again Nitty. Just knowing that you are checking in on me as I am on you helps a ton. I don't know what my wife is telling her chosen few, but her extended friend base is all Christian home school Moms. This isn't going to go over well with them at all. She has an old friend from the children's home she grew up in (long story, that one) who will probably agree with whatever she says, but that's their problem. You are 100% right. Telling the kids about this will be the hardest thing I have ever done. Worse than a Calculus III final.

2S2Q - thanks for the feedback. Oh, I know I was a knucklehead. That was 12 years ago. I have always been a Christian but fell away from active faith and growth after getting to know a Pastor very well and finding him and his belief to be highly hypocritical (his son and I were friends.) I was young, yada yada. This time around, adopting, and then really embracing Christ could have been smoother, but the proof is in the pudding. I have rediscovered myself in Him - and honestly, I have my W to thank. I am more faithful now than ever. Though W has fallen away a bit, don't you think?

Anniversary is 9/2. Somebody have a drink for me. I only drink when I'm in a good mood to begin with. Something tells me that won't be the case on Tuesday.