Maybe it is pushing just to push.
It seems that all of the mistakes that I made early, after finding out about the A, are biting me back right now.

The instant forgiveness. The acting like I can instantly move on. The fake trust.

I think all of those things have caused this stagnant situation.

Maybe pushing would only be for a reaction.
I am all over the place. I will continue detaching at home and use my time - take it day by day.

Thanks MLP

Me-45 W-44
S21, S18, D15
T-27, M-21
BD Jan 2014
PA revealed March 2014
In-house separation - April 2015
I filed - Aug 2015
She moved out Oct 2015