OK, I'm noticing something from the MLCer. XH has texted me 4 days this week. VERY UNUSUAL! As mentioned earlier, he texted s and said, "I just miss you two so much." Referring to the two kids, of course.
But, what is going on? Probably nothing.... other than he misses the kids. But his text messages are not really necessary. For example, this morning:
h: (I keep doing that..) ahem, pardon me while I correct myself and restart... again...
OK, so this morning at 9:40AM:
XH(!): Is Dom home? He usually responds when I say goodnight and didn't last night. I got a late night call from an unknown number.
me: He is sleeping. He was home last night by 9:30. Wasn't him.
XH: OK. Thanks
First of all, he has no idea about the kids whereabouts and has not been one bit concerned about where s is at night, even when I have called him in the past that s was drunk out of his mind. He did not text me until the next day and said, "Not good." Of course that was the day he was leaving for his cruise (which I didn't know then), so he had other things on his mind.
And I know for a fact that s does not always respond to his text messages. And seriously, s calling him in the middle of the night from an unknown number? H text me at 9:40AM to find out? Was he really THAT concerned? Maybe hww was concerned who it was?? Whatever....
I'm sure it's nothing, but I do pay attention to these things. If not for anything, for document purposes here. I am not sure really how to respond. I show zero concern or emotion. Donno...
Anyway. I had a nice time with the fam today. I did leave for a little bit to run to Target. While I was there, this guy kept following me around. He was an employee there and kept blockading the isle on me. Finally I was coming around another corner and he was there. He asked me if I was "attached" to anyone. I said yes (easiest response) and he said, "Oh, I was thinking we could exchange numbers."
Let me explain to you why this upset me. I am not judgmental, by any means. Please, I hope no one gets offended here. Not one of these things is really bad, but when you put them together... well... not my thing.
OK, so he was probably 20 years older than me... at least. He had a full head of gray curly hair. He was scrawny with blood-shot eyes, and the pungent odor of Jack Daniel's emanating from his breath gave me a buzz. But, it clearly did not impair his ability to walk a straight line down the isle all while continuing to stock the shelves in the bathroom department. (Yes, I was buying things for my NEW bathroom!! It ended prematurely, needless to say.)
He was soooooo friggin creepy! He was scary and really freaked me out! I went straight to the check out line. I was done. What a wimp I've become! AND.... while I was in line, I started to cry! OMG, I'm such a baby. I was the one who never cried... people thought I didn't have a soft side... now, I'm mush. But, I was thinking about how xh is in a r with a 20 something and here I am, alone again (I'm OK being alone, I'm just sick of doing some of the house things alone- always making the decisions. It takes the fun out). Is this what I have to look forward to? Is this going to be my life and these are my prospects. I have been asked out by 2 guys. BOTH of them are old and creepy. Not that I'm ready for that... but I would be nice to be noticed by someone younger than my dad. I really don't even think I look old. Yesterday at s17 game, I was talking to the athletic director and another mom asked him if I was his daughter. He joked and said, "Yes, can you believe she's already 18?!" So I don't get it. I guess I just feel so rejected already... replaced by the *shiny new* and to think.... ewwwwww... lets not think!
I need to go to new places. I'm not looking, but I'm not looking to be picked up by that, either. Maybe I should join a convent.
