It's very difficult. I get what you're saying but it's hard to just turn off my emotions. I love him and I do want to change our R, for the better. That desire doesn't disappear just because he believes he's done.

My head knows things, but my heart wants what it wants.

I've been spending time at my mom's house, just to not be here. Driving a lot. Walking. Motorcycle course is coming up soon.

Just riding out feeling miserable, praying for a miracle a lot, and trying to better ME.

He's hardly ever here, likely avoiding the situation. Oh well.

Last edited by Two Sided Coin; 08/31/14 08:45 PM.
BF:40 M:33
SD: 12
T: 8, never married, no kids together
BD: 8/4, "I'm just done", "...too tired and burnt to try".
PA confirmed 8/5 "It happened, but it's been over for almost a year".