Need to figure out how to move forward (thread #4)

[Onguard]

Your situation, like mine, has been a roller coaster of emotions. I am also depressed and full of jealousy, desperately wanting things to be the way they were a year ago. Sho, I think you should be very proud of the fact that you just pulled off a great family vacation! I know how much strength it takes to act as if when all you want to do is scream and cry.
Your kids are your family and your not the one blowing things up. It hurts but know that you are a good father. My D13 asked me why this was happening to our family and said she didn't want us to split up. That shredded my heart but all I could do was tell her "neither do I".