Dealing with WAW part 5

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Hey Lisa, Thanks for the post. The friend involved used to be my Ws best friend when we lived here (prior to our 2 year move in another state). She was a bridesmaid at our wedding. She has remained friends with my W. I ran into her while grocery shopping the other day. I do not recall how our conversation got started, but basically she had tons of unanswered questions. My W really did not go into any detail about herself with this friend, or any motives, and I guess that is why my Ws friend was so curious. Our phone conversation lasted a little over 2 hours...from 1:30 in the morning till 3:30ish. Most of these revelations came out towards the end, as she had clearly been holding them back and was begging me to never ever tell my W that she told me these things. I ultimately had told this friend of my W about the A and this friend said omg it all makes sense now. She said she and her H could see red flags all over the place when talking with her but never pushed the issue.

I honestly have no handle on my situation. I feel I am losing control of it more and more every day. I do not know why. I do not know if it is something internal, maybe the deadline of the D petition looming, her moving into her own place and getting herself established... I really do not know. I had such good detachment but something about last night just really got to my gut. I know the proper thing to do is to let it slide off my back as you say. And I know I should not have spent 2 hours talking R talk with one of her close friends. I guess it just felt good to actually talk about it...with anyone. I have not done so in a long time, and maybe it was just bottling up and needed to be released.

I am hoping this will pass soon as today I have really been in a funk...