barely holding on - 3

[u-turn]

Sorry to keep adding to this - I am dwelling a little on this.

I think I need to push - I will be the one to have to make a decision to separate and move out. I will be the one to have to make a decision to end the M because all of this works for her right now.

maybe...
She is waiting for me to be the bad guy

She wants me to turn into the WAH to solve everything she can then take the high road and doesn't have to make any decisions at all.