barely holding on - 3

[u-turn]

MLP.
I know it is not time for relationship talks.

I don't know if it was productive but I know so little about her any more and this was at least some information.

I keep telling myself to detach...probably said it 100 times in my head yesterday. It's hard to do this with all of us in the house.

I keep thinking that I have to keep pushing a little or things won't change. She has no reason to change. She doesnt want to break up the family but won't change anything to stop it. It is all up to me to know how long I can stand this and it seems sometimes she will out last me.