Oh GGG, I'm sorry your fun and amazing evening was dampened by him.
I think you said so many profound things in your post above.
That you're happiest away from him. That he doesn't value the best of you, the things that make you unique.
You say you're worth pursuing and then ask if he is.
How about this...
You're definitely worth pursuing... perhaps by an energetic, admirable, wonderful, intelligent, respectful, hilarious, interesting someone-else.
What would you say to a 16 year old girl who has a crush on a guy who doesn't value her gifts? You'd tell here there are other fish in the sea, that she has her whole life ahead of her and to not waste it on a guy who doesn't think she is the MOST AMAZING PERSON ON THE PLANET.
You deserve that kind of admiration, GGG. We all do.
It hurts being the dumpee. It hurts knowing that, while we know we're imperfect for sure, we have incredible qualities that make a great partner, friend, spouse and lover. It hurts knowing they disagree after they once agreed. It really hurts. It's a HUGE beat down to the ego and self esteem. And it hurts every single day we're in this situation.
You've stated your health is your highest priority right now. Is maintaining even the tiniest bit of hope in him helping you meet that goal? I'd argue that he's hindering it.
It's clear he doesn't value you. To me it's clear he doesn't value himself either but more importantly he doesnt' value all that you are. At all.
