Honestly, every time I think about sitting in a room with H and the mediator, discussing how we are going to divorce each other, I start feeling panicky, like this can't possibly be happening. He was supposed to love me forever - and he was the one who made a BIG deal a few months ago about the fact that he did not remember me EVER saying to him that I'd love him forever.
LiveNow, I found a card Mr. Gritty gave me in February 1981 (oh, yeah, I keep everything, too). It was a huge card, over a yard tall. He wrote on it, "I'll love you and I ALWAYS WILL!"
When I remember stuff like this I fall apart and because of that I am so far getting an F in mediation. You need to be tougher than that!
A book I read says that men see D as a business transaction and we see it as love and money and promises all wrapped up together.
So forget the broken promises... that's what I'm trying to do. It's so hard but we must do it. And face him in mediation as a strong, confident woman.
Just knowing somebody else is going through it will help me be strong so you be strong, too.
And take your omegas. I've been taking supplements recommended in "The Mood Cure" and when I ran out I noticed a huge difference in my spirits. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.
M:54, H:55 T:33, M:27 12/13 BD: EA 01/14 BD: PA, H leaves 03/14 H & OW break up 05/14 H says he will file for D 08/14 H initiates D 09/14 H wants to R 12/14 Still bungling our way through R
