No I know it was mentioned but we do not have a separation agreement per say. He and I have agreed on things but it's not legally bound
I want a resolution. I want to know it's going to be okay. I want things to be fixed. I want to forgive.
I struggle with forgiveness. Will I ever be able to forgive him? Only time will tell. I'm really putting a lot of weight on Counseling to help us
H and I had a date night last night. We met a few of my friends out at a local bar and stayed out pretty late and had a great time.
Today my mom watched the boys and we did some furniture shopping (I had some stuff to exchange). Tonight we took the boys over to my friends house and let the kids swim and we grilled out. My. H really enjoys her H even though they haven't hung out much in the past. Overall great weekend so far.
Planning on taking the boat out tomorrow with family. It will be the first time H will be around everyone back in this setting but I know he will be fine and I know my family will be fine because they just want me to be happy.
It truly is like we haven't skipped a beat. Even my friend tonight said. If I didn't know everything I would never in a million years think anything happened between you two. Especially to the extreme (she knows some of the gory details). She said she can see what love we have for each other being around us. It's the truth - we really have such great time together. Then this forgiveness and trust thing. Creeps back up!
