So sorry things aren't going well, To tell you the truth, I've been having some "trouble" myself as of late. I'm having difficulty getting myself moving. My D14 is with her mother and I can tell my W has been manipulating her. I have had to take her to school 3 out of 5 days when she was staying with her mother as my W was "too busy" at work to take her and she would have had to walk 20 min.'s. I even picked her up after school yesterday so she wouldn't have to walk home. My older D19 has to work all weekend and we can't get together as I was hoping. I am very much in another anger phase. I can't stop thinking of how my W's choices took everything that was most important from me. How, for years while she was so "depressed" I worked so hard and was so supportive only to have her just throw our M and family away like it meant nothing. If I had done anything to deserve what she has done, if I was really to blame, I wouldn't feel so betrayed.
It just seems like all these MLCers get all that their faithless hearts desire at the expense of us LBS's and all the people that have loved and counted on them for so long. They are the ones that seem to have power over us. Because we still have values and want our M's to work, not just throw away decades of love and fidelity, they get to say what they want, do what they want without thinking about how WE will react. They want company, they call and invite us over. We want company and we're afraid they will see it as "pursuing" and have to think over all the ways they "may" react. That do whatever they get a whim to do whether it hurts others, puts us or people who count on them out, no matter. What THEY want, how THEY feel is more important than solemn vows, promises, obligations, what's best for their own children, whatever. I have had "Zits" cartoons on my fridge many, many times over the years. The thing is, with teenagers, we know they will grow out of the selfish "I am the center of the universe" thinking and behaving. With MLCers, who knows if they will ever "grow back up" and see just how awful they are being. Of course it doesn't help that we live in a society that seems to tell them that they have every "right" to act the way they are.
Hang in there Nitty. At least he didn't expect you to ML after weeks of treating you like crap. I know for me, it's the smug look they get when they get you to do something for them that they have to know they don't deserve! Try and stay centered. I'd advise you to go out and GAL some but I haven't being doing so well on that front lately myself. Try to take your mind off of your H, M, R, everything for the next couple days. Nothing horrible's going to happen for at least that long. Take some time for YOU! Last night really couldn't have hurt so much, all you did was watch a movie and show you are just fine. He's going to do whatever he gets it in his head to do and has very little to do with what we say or do. You'll be fine.
