This is terrifying - I hope you understand

[Shakspr]

Okay, strange new emotion today. W is out of town at an aunt's (good woman - practically her Mom)after dropping off SS, 15, at his Dad's. She said she was staying overnite with Aunt, but is still not home.

And I find myself not caring. Whether she is there, here, or in a car wreck. That can't be right, can it? Is my heart just too tired to keep fighting alone?

Confused, tired, and having fun with my kids all at once. This is surreal.