I didn't respond to that "Thanks for stopping by" text, as I wasn't sure what to say and certainly not sure if I did the right thing in going to see him. Probably it was a mistake.
I know my sons would be upset with me for going to see him like I did. I know my counselor will think this is a setback (especially since I wept through my last counseling session). I wonder what my DB coach will say. (I wept through that session, too.)
I'm not crying now, just kind of tired. Shell-shocked. I'm still working on the extra job I took, but it's hard to focus and I keep having to redo stuff.
I'm hoping I haven't set myself back. As the day has gone on I haven't heard from Mr. Gritty. No offer to meet for breakfast, no texts at all. He doesn't know what he wants, he is confused. We will probably go through a couple more of these episodes before we're done, one way or another.
Last night was, As Matt165 said once, a little blip of decent. I will probably not hear from him for a couple of days. Who knows.
I'm unsettled, certainly not detached yet.
If there was a pill to take for detachment, I would swallow a whole bottle.
Last edited by Nitty; 08/30/1408:33 PM.
M:54, H:55 T:33, M:27 12/13 BD: EA 01/14 BD: PA, H leaves 03/14 H & OW break up 05/14 H says he will file for D 08/14 H initiates D 09/14 H wants to R 12/14 Still bungling our way through R
